Confessions of the impertinent predilections of a sinner...

Somehow, i can't put a finger as to why i have nothing to blog about although there have been so many emotions running through me incessantly. I only slept at about 8 am today. But woke up at 11 crying in bed again. Cowbit called... so i was trying to reply him between sobs and we talked for a while.

Lethargy was overwhelming... but i just can't get to sleep. I laid in bed a while more and decided to make use of my time more constructively. I woke up, with a mouth feeling dehydrated from the excess alcohol intake from last night. I trudged into the washroom and cleaned up, with a throbbing head.

The listless stare made me feel so much like a zombie. Perhaps, i felt i've lost something really special, something that's been a big part of me. Yet, atrociously cruel, nothing can ever replace it. I probably can never love again. I feel that i've lost myself. Maybe i'll become another of those bitches who just fuck around for fun and break others' hearts over and over again for all i care.

I don't want to loose myself. I loved the way i was. Besides, its my science practicals for 'O' levels tomorrow. I'm so screwed.


I'm left with nothing. And with nothing else to say.Maybe i have too much, i don't know where to start.