Couch potato #1

And here i am, in the middle of a WEEKEND stuck at home in the midst of the humid gloom and threatening grey clouds looming right above me.

But its wonderful. I'm enjoying a book, comfortably tucked in bed.
With a warm cup of tea, an under-sized tee and undies! :))


;even when you aren't with me, even when you don't bother reading all these little love notes, even when you don't bother. fuck.

Declaration...

I just got back from a relaxing run with my dog, Niko. 4km? I should think so. And it feeels goooood. Dog training again tonight with baby, and baby's baby of course. Haha!

So, right now. The enjoyments of my life - tennis, doggie runs and jazz :)

THE GOOOD OLE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE AGAIN!!! 2 months for me! Driving lessons, pole dancing classes, perm my hair, get doggie walking assignments and... Australia!


;you're not an enjoyment, love. you're a necessity ; the one i can't live without.








this is Jaedon. i miss him.

Life in hell : day 2 - struggling to survive

Woke up at 9am, mopped around till 10 plus. Rushed my mom to the dog groomers, appointment was at 11am. She was too busy doing the laundry and all, my dad decided to fetch both the doggies. Came home, mopped and distinfected the porch with floor detergent and dettol 8 TIMES. Brushed the sidewalks clean with the used soap water from the laundry. My morning gone.

Showered and did a little revision, electrician came to fix lights, replaced my leaking heater and added an extra shelf on my wall. Now,i need to fix a fence that seperates the garden from the backyard. It'll be Niko's haven. =D lucky ass dog. Picked the dogs from the groomers at 5. got back. went to the salon for a hair wash and off with mummy to church for prayer meeting. dinner-ed.

Whoa. No studying done = no progression. Eesh.

the ones whom you'd never give in to, try so f-ing hard. and the ones you're dying for, cannot be f-ing bothered. so, might as well don't f-ing bother.

life in hell : day 1 - survived

So, I will be posting how miserably life would be treating me from this day on.

Lo and behold, the ONLY reason being : the blistering maid took off.

Up, up and away, to the Embassy on the account of being ill-treated from her soap-corroded hands due to her stubborn refute from wearing gloves when handling our laundry - of which she did not report likewise and made it look like another cruel story splattered all over the papers just a while back. (-*&%$#@-)

AND, poor me, had to bathe the dogs, dry their long and thick furcoats (zomg, it takes forever i swear), wash and mop their quarters, wash the carpet that Niko pee-ed on, mop the floor again cos she pee-ed at the same spot where the carpet was, grocery shopping for both the dogs (dry food, pet milk and shampoo) and my own. Finally, walked the dogs... ...
My afternoon and evening gone, just like that. Amazing.

I doubt I need anymore tennis as part of my exercise regime. Housework is more than enough to keep me at the edge and working out, non-stop. Lest, the dog walking part. I almost feel like a sled whenever i hook on the 'walking leash' :(






animal sporting ambassadors, anyone?

awaiting other uploads... ... presenting to you. LA trip!!!

transitions... the good and bad.

If life was like a train ride to the other end of the world, I would've taken countless transits. And at every transit, learnt something new, changed - for the better or worse, matured, grown and realised.

So I'm marking this paticular transit I'm stopping over at just this very moment. A transit of nothingness. I might be a transit where that's absolutely desolute and derelict... or a transit that happened too quickly.

But, this transit is neither. This transit was of unexplained incidents, misled conversations and saturation points.
I divulged into wonder. enough not to wander.


Dear readers, i would like to apoligize for the degradation in content of my posts. Passing thoughts slip my mind at every instance. I think i need to start penning my thoughts down soon.

and i wondered if apologies were made too often than not, would 'sorry' still carry across the messages that it was initially created for.

the song that spoke more than a thousand words.

I dont wanna lose you,
I dont wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side
And I dont wanna hate you
I dont wanna take you
But I dont wanna be the one to cry
That dont really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

Now I could never change you
I dont wanna blame you
Baby you dont have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking somethings gonna change

But theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you cant trust
Theres a reason why people dont stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just aint enough

And theres no way home
When its late at night and youre all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
There beside you where I used to lay

And theres a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart they cant touch.
Theres a reason why people dont stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just aint enough.
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

the inevitable element of change...

After all these while, now you seem like a totally different person i've perspected you to be. I'm to blame cos its what i've assumed.

Thinking back, i shrug my shoulders when i ask if it was a good thing i didn't jump into a relationship with you. I'd just say am definitely turned-off by the things you do and it wasn't the you the i once knew. Not anymore. Perhaps you were putting up a front just to make me fall for it and assure me that you'd be a safe choice.

Or maybe, my leaving made you turn into this ugly ogre now.
Oh well. I really don't know what to say. And i don't need an answer probably cos i don't really care anymore.

But if you ever do need anyone, i'll be here a a friend. Anytime.

other than that, adios my dear friend. Its the old you i miss.

extraordinaire... that's you baby

:))

heart-felt



champagne people @ bellini

the babe and the baby :)

even walls can't seperate us!

baby aka da chef =D

baby's baby. :(

cruising along the horizons on the first morning

baby girl was curious about the camera phone