He took her out on a blinded trip-to-nowhere.
the entrance guards didnt even stop him.
Guided her gently by her hands...
a duffel over his shoulder, and her hands in his.
picked a nice spot where he laid out the hammock.
under the stars, they sat...swinging.
along the curvaceous shorelines of her favourite beach.

the cool land breeze fluttered against their cheeks.
as the repetitive sound of waves crashed and receded,
they talked as if there was no tommorrow.
they talked as if he didnt need to go.

just as they were packing up for home,
a light drizzle started falling gently,
caressing their presence with a heavenly shower.
she wrapped herself in his warm wool blanket,
as they strolled back to the car.
and looked forward to seeing each other once more.

who gives a fuck whether you love me OR NOT.

you wanna know why. cos you're doing things all the Wrong way boy.
if you're avoiding regret, let me help you get to it.


cos you're pushing me away when i need you.

you have your reasons. And i'll have mine.
I HATE YOU.

I've been running through this town,
I've been combing every street.
I've been searching for the reason within reasons,
Been searching for the higher ground in me.
And I've been trying to surrender,
To trust in every word.
All my days of misery,
Someone could have taken them from me.

I've been searching for myself,
For oh so many times.
I've been searching for the answer within answers,
But no one seems to know what's on my mind.
Craving for her love,
Aching for her touch,
All my days of misery, someone could have taken them from me.

So tell me where you are,
Tell me how you feel.
Tell me what you need,
Just tell me how you feel.
And let it all just rain on me,
Let it all just rain on me,
Let it all just rain on me....
Rain down on me.

If only for a day,
Oh if only for one night,
I could tell you this is everything that i have ever lived for,
But I'd be giving it all away.
So look into these eyes,
And tell me how you feel.
All my days of misery, someone could have taken them from me.

So tell me where you are,
Tell me how you feel.
Tell me what you need,
Just tell me how you feel.
And let it all just rain on me,
Let it all just rain on me,

Let it all just rain on me...
Rain down on me.

"Walking Away"

The sun goes down as the city lights
Pave their way through the darkest night
Raindrops fall as an old man cries
Never thought to ever think twice

Of all he had
Of all he lost
A selfish life
And guess comes with the cost

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away
Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

The same old streets just a different name
Same old house just the family's changed
Pickett fence
The window stains
Freedom spells by a man in chains

Silence is all we have to give
And the memories of a life I wish we'd lived

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

From all that you made
That you lost
Or threw away
Traded in for a brand new life
But I can't
Can't let go
Can't turn around
Hold my head high and walk away

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

Hey, remember me
I remember you walking away

and the emotional harangue continues silently in her head


Today we took a walk up the street
And picked a flower and climbed the hill
Above the lake

And secret thoughts were said aloud
We watched the faces in the clouds
Until the clouds had blown away

And were we ever somewhere else
You know, it's hard to say

And I never saw blue like that before
Across the sky
Around the world
You've given me all you have and more
And no one else has ever shown me how
To see the world the way I see it now
Oh, I, I never saw blue like that

I can't believe a month ago
I was alone, I didn't know you
I hadn't seen or heard you're name
And even now, I'm so amazed
It's like a dream, It's like a rainbow, it's like the rain

And somethings are the way they are
And words just can't explain

I hope my subtle music playing in the background only disrupts the whirling of the ceiing fan and not my mother's sleep. Its 3:57am. I'm wide awake in the dim orange hue at the usual corner in my room. Thoughts hung from strings dangles in my cranium, succumbing to gravity's pull, helplessly. Winding in and out, i'm mindful of my own steps now - of being roped in and all tangled up. Mesmerised and captivated as i am, Perhaps, i already am... holding myself captive within.

Vindicated although defense is just paper thin, I am selfish.
Maybe i'm wrong, maybe i'm right - my paradoxical conundrum that never fails to induce insomnia.

As i lay awake here, awaiting the slightest break of dawn - like a superhero who never flounders when it came to saving my day. Right now, I am wondering if my superhero will still appear again, like he always does. What if he doesn't? What if... it rains.

Perhaps I'm triyng to forget the feeling that I miss you.
Or maybe... nothing. Simply nothing.

As my mind wanders out and ventures to every corner of both my intellectual and fictional horizons, Something in me is reticently praying that it looses its way, never to return.

I don't want to know despite my futile attemps to obfuscate what you're trying to get at. Life's not always black and white. Perhaps you've always loved me. And when you're with me, you're close to tears, because I'm only almost here. Bruised and battered by my actions, Dazed and shattered and it hurts.

But i don't think you need me, boy... I don't know anything anymore. Sorry. Thanks for remembering me while you were away anyway.



Sometimes I find myself sitting back and reminiscing,
Especially when I have to watch other people kissing.
All the flirtatious disses, I’d tell you sad stories about my childhood.
I don't know why I trusted you but I knew that I could.
We’d spend the whole weekend
Lying in our own dirt.
I was just so happy
In your boxers and your t-shirt.

Dreams, dreams of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me.
It seems,That I can’t shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there.
I know it sounds lame but it’s so true.
I know it’s not right but it seems unfair,
That things are reminding me of you.
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend,
Even if only for one weekend.

Drinkin’ tea in bed, watching DVDs through the night.
The first time that you introduced me to your friends,
And you could tell that I was nervous, so you held my hand.
When I was feeling down, you’d make that face you do.
There’s no-one in the world who could replace you.

The littlest things that take me there

Fussin' and fightin', we back at it again
I know that, it's my fault, but you don't understand (no)
I got memories, this is crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
Good with ma, good with pa, cool with all my niggas
I should try, truth is I wanna let u in, but no
Damn these memories, and it's crazy
You ain't nothing like the girl I used to know

Girl I really wanna work this out, cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

Why can't I get it right, just can't let it go
I opened up, she let me down, I won't feel that no more
I got memories, this is crazy
She ain't nothing like the girl I used to know
I don't mean to take it out on you baby but I can't help it
'Cause my heart is in the same ol' condition that baby left it
And I, I apologize, for makin' you cry
Look me in my eye and promise you won't do me the same

Girl I really wanna work this out, 'cause I'm tired of fightin'
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out, damn girl I'm tryin'
It's no excuse, no excuse
But I got this

I got this icebox where my heart used to be (but I got this)
I got this icebox where my heart used to be (said I got this)
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold
I'm so cold, I'm so cold, I'm so cold

I don't wanna be stuck up in this cold cold world ('cause I don't wanna be)
Don't wanna mess this up better keep your eye on me girl

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't....

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder....

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

So much I've never broken through...

I'm going home...finally maybe...