放生 - 范逸臣

地点是城市某个角落
时间在午夜时刻
无聊的人常在这里出没
交换一种寂寞

我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说
比争吵更折磨
不如就分手

放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸

我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
又何苦还要继续迁就


我静静坐在你的身后
你似乎只想沉默
我猜我们的爱情已到尽头
无话可说
比争吵更折磨
不如就分手

放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸

我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生留下活口


爱的时候
说过的承诺
爱过以后
就不要强求
从此分手
不必再回头
各自生活

曾经孤单加上孤单是爱火
燃烧过你和我
如今沉默加上沉默更沉默
再没有什么舍不得


放我一个人生活
请你双手不要再紧握
一个人我至少干净俐落
沦落就沦落
爱闯祸就闯祸

我也放你一个人生活
你知道就算继续结果还是没结果
就彼此放生
彼此留下活口

just a bad dream...i wish it was.

At this point of time, nothing seems to work anymore. Nothing. I feeel so so so fucked up and i'm keeping it all inside. All everyone see and will see is a cheery face - same ole me. This is tearing me apart. Seriously. I want to give up but don't know how to, other than kill myself. It hurts, TERRIBLY. Albeit the fact that most would choose to believe - women have a high threshold of pain, it hurts THAT much. My goodness.

Nobody knows and I do not blame them, for I don't see a point in burdening them with this pain of mine. Nobody would understand anyway. I DO appreciate all the concern and care that everyone has shown. But the matter of fact that no one can tell me: 'I know how you feel'. They can't... ... And i know that damn well.

I can almost feel myself shrinking back into my little shell, shying away from the world. Thus, my choice to hibernate instead of sleep is self explanatory. Every morning, I don't really feeel like waking up to face the world anymore. Everything around me is in a huge whirl of confusion.

I don't know what to do, don't know how to feel, don't know what is going on, don't know how to react.

teach me,Lord...

acute pain overwhelmed with uncertainty...

Yea, that's how I'm feeling right now, this very moment. God knows when it'll go away and i can't get any sleep now.

This sadistic mixture of physical and emotional turmoil is tough stuff man.

keeeping it strong and going...i'm hanging in there.

surgery... :((

apparently i've been diagnosed with prolapsed piles and might need to go through surgery... sucks.

2 days mc for me. hope the butt bullet(suppository) works :( or i have to be admitted

nostalgic reminiscence...

How can i just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When i stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
When all i can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that's what i've got to face

I wish i could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much i need to say to you,
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all i can do and that's what i've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos i'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance i've gotta take

Take a look at me now

slumber-less... and rainy

The relentless flashing of lightning in the eerie reddish gloom of the early sunday morning sky isn't helping me get to sleep at all. Perhaps i do suffer from jet lag after all. Haha. Consolations are the most pathetic loopholes one can ever expose. You get my drift, i hope.

To wonder how am i going to catch up with my studying, is a nightmare on its own. Maybe that explains my conscience's refusal to allow to me sleep - or i'll be jerked up in bed in the middle of the night sweating profusely over the horror of my blank exam paper chopping me up in to bits and pieces. urgh. no thanks.

it'd be good if some of you could drop a little reminder once in a while... hope that tweaks a little of my ass to get me studying. =D

STUDY, ANDREAAAAAAAAA!rawr.

; God save me man.

Broken...

"Broken"

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), is there healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain(In the pain) there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'),
I'm barely holdin' on to you

;drifting...

Can't hold on - Melee

Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said
'Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

[Chorus]
But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through

Someone dies late at night and I never know
And even if I did, so afraid of the face I'd show
I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last

[Chorus]

I want to be free
I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
Oh, I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free

You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me

Oh, and if you can't hold on
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
I'll be there, I'll be there

Oh, and if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there so you know that you're not alone