my room
it smells
of you

how you've lingered in the air.
you
have come
and you
have gone

and I am stuck in yesterday.
(too tired to go on.)


your lips spoke certain words
but a different story was shining
in your eyes.

and with our last embrace
the future flashed
and flickered
and faded
with your tail lights.
(fireworks style.)

how sweet of you
to catch
the final
kiss.

now i'm hesitant,
to catch
the last
train home.


never to return back, to where i left off from; where you stood watching my departure

I'm at the crossroads, look but I'm not really sure which way to go.Looking over my shoulder, cause it's colder than it seems

I never needed a smoke so badly before.
I never felt this lost.
I never knew forever felt so real. Its like home.
I never doubted that we came right from the heart.
I never listened to the noises, null and void inside my head.
I never felt so frustrated because I don't know what I'm changing into.
I never told you how it feels like to sit in your head, alone.
I never felt more miserable.
I never felt so fucked. Basically.

You're my favourite accident because, you're my favourite mistake.

I know you're looking at me through the glass.
I know you don't know how much is real.
I know you're outside looking in. at me.
I know you don't expect an easy answer.
I know i cant expect a bit of hope.
I know the stars that shine, lie too.
I know its a different scene,from what i've seen.

I know, I'm falling deeper.

And I look forward to be with the people i miss... and not find myself buggered by the people whom i do not yearn to be with...

help me tell God i left Him a text message

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

[Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
No one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head ]

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
but No one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real?
So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void instead of voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever

But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah ah
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah ah

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you, yeah ah
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah ah
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you, yeah ah
And its's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah yeah

Oh when the stars
Oh when the stars they lie.


I've finally realized, that you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think, and you're all seem to keep thinking,
To keep thinkin of, yeahhh
And now I know I need you each and every day
I can't live without you, so don't run away
Baby you say that you love me

I can't think, think about this crazy day
I lose sleep just to daydream about you baby

Wounded soldier on the ground
Broken, bleeding, beaten down,
Feeling defeated, feeling not needed,
Alone, abandoned on the battleground.
Wounded soldier, faithful friend,
Beaten down by those you defended,
Your heart once open, now pierced and broken,
Needing hope to rise again.

Let me bind up every wound,
Let me comfort every pain.
Let me carry you to a place of rest,
Shelter from pouring rain.
Let me hold you. I can be right where you are.
Let me hold you in the shelter of my heart.
When you're weary from the battle and all hopes seems so far,
Just remember I am with you faithfully guarding your heart.

While the battle rages on, I will hold you through the night.
In the shadow of the cross I'll be your champion; fight your fight
Let me hold you, i can be right where you are.
Let me hold you in the shelter of my heart.

Wounded soldier, you'll rise again.
You can trust me, I always win.
When you face harshness or total darkness,
I'm ever watching, faithful to defend.
Wounded soldier, faithful one.
When you're fallen,i'll help you run.
With every testing, I'll bring you resting.
And say to you,my child...
Well done.


Mel, this is for you. i might not always be there for you. But remember, He is. =)

Children sleeping
snow is softly falling.
Dreams are calling
like bells in the distance.

We were dreamers not so long ago.
But one by one we all had to grow up.

When it seems the magic slipped away,
we find it all again on Christmas day...

Believe in what your heart is saying,
hear the melody that's playing.
There's no time to waste,
there's so much to celebrate.

Believe in what you feel inside,
And give your dreams the wings to fly.
You have everything you need,
If you just believe.

Trains move quickly to their journey's end.
Destinations are where we begin again.
Ships go sailing far across the sea.
Trust in starlight, to get where they need to be.

When it seems that we have lost our way,
we find ourselves again on Christmas day...

Believe in what your heart is saying,
hear the melody that's playing.
There's no time to waste,
there's so much to celebrate.

Believe in what you feel inside,
And give your dreams the wings to fly.
You have everything you need,
If you just believe.

If you just believe.
If you just believe.
If you just believe.
Just believe.
Just believe.

babe, you're missed, truckloads.

uncle yean lih, you too, just carloads though. haa

loves =)


and i look forward to times when we can walk along the beach with our toes in the sand, chasing, splashing...

Who Am I


Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

'orh you like fat' =)

you mean like this? i see

everyone have differing taste,i guess

Haha. Now COWARDS with HORRENDOUS ENGLISH can't spam.

Idiots, i must say.

doyouneedamirror,huh?

Oh yes, i feel fat. =( damn.

There is something unique about each moment we live. The feeling of a time and place in an exact moment that can never be relived. I always try to capture moments with you but not with a camera. A picture is only an image of frozen time. My memories like pictures are only clear if I am truly present to your every moment and nuance. I have some very clear images of you I carry carefully in my mind.

Night is the haven for life's escapees,
Those of us who flee the light of day.
We see too much as innocent bystanders,
We feel every pain and we taste every bitter pill.
I fall like the day glowing golden into the sea.
I know tragedy will not follow me in the dark;
The sunset is my lover revealing everything,
Asking nothing in return, promising nothing,
Only a kiss in the dark as night falls.



Trees grow leaves then shed them after they change colors. They grow taller and wider every year. Barns age with time, old wood patched with new tin roofs rusting in the weather. Fences change and move. Nothing stays the same. Time is the great power we never see but always feel. Age is no disgrace only a measure of the life we live and then only the length of it never the depth or width. Full lives are sometimes short and empty lives often longer than dirt. I suppose I fall somewhere in between the past and the inevitable changes the future holds.

FUCK YOU DAD, I HATE YOU. BLEEDING BASTARD.

THE TANNING PROCESS. =)

So, i went to try on bikinis. Got the black one.
Headed down...weather was super sunny. laid out my stuff and laid there.
These idiots kachiaw-ing my doggies.
Came home quite satisfied but burnt like a red lobster in brown sauce/gravy. =S
Tried on some clothesand TADA! =)

ouch im burnt,again =)

Like a wayfaring soul who's lost track of direction.

She meets an unusual encounter, sits down and starts pondering about the road ahead... But she thinks about all the hatred and hurt that she had left behind - back at that place called 'home'. She quivers with doubt and much uncertainty. On the gentle gradient of the hill she sat, hugging her knees as the gentle breeze caressed her cold cheeks. The sun peeks over the horizon as the question rang in her cranium, incessantly...

Should I turn around...

Perhaps staying on the hill would be the best choice, she thought.

Or should i stay...?

take my hand; we'll run far far away baby.just you and me

and so they speak for themselves...