Confessions of the impertinent predilections of a sinner...

Its late. I just feel like crying although my friends are over. Seems, I'm being pretty caught up in some difficult situation. I seriously need to start working. My mum has officially abandoned me. She told me straight into my face. Ouch, yes i know.

Just sent Swang off. Guess there's not much of places left for me to reside whenever my mom doesn't feel like seeing my face. I'll miss her late night sleepover chats about our problems and how we feel about each other. In fact, i'm tearing now. For both of my conundrums as well as the part about me going to be missing her...loads.

I'll be fine i guess.

Suddenly the world just seem to come crashing down. Where'm I gonna get money from? Where am I gonna stay if my mom don't wanna see my face? Who am I gonna talk to? No more Swang. I don't know. Crying doesn't help the situation in anyway. But I still do.

Fucking stubborn, I am. I want to cry so much, like i've never wanted to before. Not even when I was beaten up by my dad.


I'll be fine, baby. By and by....I will.