You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn just as people grow and change, so it is with love... and you learn you don't have the right to demand love on your terms...just to make you happy.

You come to a realisation that you deserve to be treated with love,kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won;t settle for less. You allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his or her touch...and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.



I've learnt that to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learnt that even when i have pains,i do not have to be one.
I've learnt that life sometimes give you a second chance.
I've learnt that life is tough, but i'm tougher.
I've learnt that opportunities are never lost;someone will take the ones you miss.
I've learnt that i can't choose how i feel,but i can choose what i want to do about it.
I've learnt that love, not time, heals all wounds.
I've learnt that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

One word - apprehensive.

I am amazed when I look at you,
I see you smiling back at me,
It's like all my dreams come true.
I am afraid if I lost you girl,
I'd fall through the cracks and lose my track,
In this crazy, lonely world.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,
When my nights can be so long,
And faith gave me the strength,
and kept me holding on.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you are my love...
The love of my life.

Now here you are,
With midnight closing in.
You take my hand as our shadows dance,
With moonlight on your skin.
I look in your eyes,
I'm lost inside your kiss.
I think if I'd never met you,
about all the things I'd missed.

Sometimes it's so hard to believe,
When a love can be so strong,
And faith gives me the strength,
and kept me going on.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you're my love...
The love of my life.

You are the love of my life,
And I'm so glad you found me,
You are the love of my life,
Baby put your arms around me,
I guess this is how it feels,
When you finally find something real.
My angel in the night, you are my love...
My angel in the night, you are my love...
The love of my... life.

Met Lina at 97 at Orchard Plaza for her 26th birthday that day. Gave her a bottle of Absolut Peach =)

Haha, was rushing to catch her at 12am, cracking our heads where to get wrapping paper at this hour. LOL. Was fun running around with you. Hehe. Sadly we didnt see the interesting birthday cake that they offer there, cos you wanted to show me. Haha, its alright. =) I kinda like that place, surprisingly, despite the wierd handful from the crowd, i find. Maybe i am just not used to it.

The birthday girl had 2 waterfalls and whiskey with green tea. Hardcore... heh. Played good techno shit. I liked it. My sis would love it better than i do, i bet. Haha, the lightings were good too. But got bored, and spontaneously, we ended up dancing out asses off at O BAR. hahhaa....

Hell of a night. But i never had so much fun in a long timeeeeeee baby.

=) lie here with me and forget about the world. I dont wanna remember anything but you.

I'm confused about how it's all supposed to be
I'm confused about how's love supposed to be
I'm confused about how's falling in love supposed to be
I'm confused about how to fall in love
I'm confused about how the world revolves
I'm confused about the genuine and the superficial
I'm confused about the things people do, and their motive behind it
I'm confused about intentions
I'm confused about trust
I'm confused about my choices

It's way past bedtime. Here i am sitting in the shadows of the orange hue of my bedside lamp, drowning myself deep into my inner thoughts that randomly ran through my head. I have no clue why these complexities hit me out of the blue, leaving me totally clueless. Not to mention, confused. Utterly confused.
Yet struggling within, convincing myself that my choices are right, and the choices i'm living at peace with. Yet, the little girl has yet to learn how to trust herself. Perhaps, its just that she has yet to learn how to trust God.

The world is concealed by a beutifully painted canvas splahed with colours so positive that it seemed almost alive. However below it reveals the decadence of societies' screw ups and unsightly ulteriors that holds negatives that eventually brings the downfall of one and kills, eventually. She cannot stand alone. Only when she realises that she cannot stand alone, then she wakens to a enlightening realisation that she needs God.

Please tell me the world is gonna end sometime soon. I'll go back to church soon.
No. Correction. I'll go back to God.


I wanna go home with you, hand in yours. Take me along?

I shut my eyes forcefully,with brows knitted closely,hoping that my inccessant self-persuasion to sleep would work. The mind defied in direct retaliation. After lying in bed for some 2 hours or so, i jolted out of bed, submitting myself to the nagging voice of conscience within - I should study,instead.

Under the dim orange hue of my bedside lamp, I squinted at my watch. It read 02:13. despite the fact that it was way past my bedtime, I didn't feel the slightest hint of lethargy.

Vaguely, i made my way to the toilet. After an episode of splashing icy cold water on my face, I was all freshened up. Throwing my hair back,the remaining droplets trickled down my face casually. I looked up and my eyes met hers, automatically.

Her facial features had an uncanny semblance that somehow emulated mine. I gazed intently into her bloodshot eyes as she stared back, listlessly. A weary expression hung blatantly on her face. Mildly taken aback, i didn't dare to acknowledge that 'her' whom i was looking at, in the mirror. My face twitched as i gasped in disgust.

'She' had dark circles that betrayed the endless sleepless nights. The dry and creased complexion spoke of every burden she'd bore. It seemed almost impossible to see her smile - smile like she really meant it. I fixed my stare, trying to grasp a better understanding of her through that little window - her eyes.

My efforts were futile as my eyebrows remained creased. I shuffled out with much alacrity, closing the door behind me quietly. Slumped into my chair, i stared into thin air, feeling so so lost...

So numb. It was as good as forgetting who i really was. Like a phoney.I wished i could just disappear from the world, in that split second. Take leave, out of this world, silently and peacefully. Unoticed.

I would smile...when world stops revolving - At the very moment when the incandescent premature sun rays peep over the horizon, over the picturesque mountains. When the humdrum monotony of the insipid night slowly ebbs as i careen down a long windy road overlooking the enitre 'switch-over' of dominance in my world. Only then, when the golden tinge of warmth spill over the treetops and set grassy meadows ablaze, as the morning dew twinkles like sparkling little gems scattered abundantly across the land... I would smile when the clock stops at that very moment.

Till then. my phalanx of conundrums remains...


Cos there's something in the way you look at me.Its as if you are the missing piece

Night was okay.

Would have been better if someone didn't POP UP INTENTIONALLY just to look me up. Its funny how you judge the people i drink with.


You should be lucky i didnt mention that you DO NOT fucking use protection IN FRONT of my friend.

Lets talk about the bigger bastard. Sorry dude. You threw me off there.

DOn't ask me if I'm attending church alright. Its a joke.