At this point of time, nothing seems to work anymore. Nothing. I feeel so so so fucked up and i'm keeping it all inside. All everyone see and will see is a cheery face - same ole me. This is tearing me apart. Seriously. I want to give up but don't know how to, other than kill myself. It hurts, TERRIBLY. Albeit the fact that most would choose to believe - women have a high threshold of pain, it hurts THAT much. My goodness.
Nobody knows and I do not blame them, for I don't see a point in burdening them with this pain of mine. Nobody would understand anyway. I DO appreciate all the concern and care that everyone has shown. But the matter of fact that no one can tell me: 'I know how you feel'. They can't... ... And i know that damn well.
I can almost feel myself shrinking back into my little shell, shying away from the world. Thus, my choice to hibernate instead of sleep is self explanatory. Every morning, I don't really feeel like waking up to face the world anymore. Everything around me is in a huge whirl of confusion.
I don't know what to do, don't know how to feel, don't know what is going on, don't know how to react.
teach me,Lord...
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I can't agree with U more... hey, take a step back n look around U ... the people who r closed to U share ur pain as well. They could have chosen to walk away but they didn't... Shrinking back to ur shell doesn't really help... it detech urself further and that is where U suffer even more...
i may not know what you're going through.. but hang on and keep the faith =)
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