The room's chilly, finally. Big thanks to mom who installed the new aircon! Now, as i take a glance out of the window, its a good thing the heat outside is just, but an imagination and nothing more.
Yesterday and today was spent idling and reflecting in my cosy room. I like my room very much. I didn't do much, but enough for me to be myself - over-pensive at times, reflective, and imaginative (of the future, that is). I'd mentally construct imaginary scenarios that would make my life more exciting, keeping myself amazed for extended bouts of time. Such that these silly daydreams have detached me from reality,just slightly, that i seem not to care less about life in general. I've always been better myself being alone amidst a throng of people and generally doing small things that makes myself personally happy, like peeping over the person standing in front while typing their sms (never gotten caught so far, thank God) or just popping out of nowhere to greet hello to the fellow girlys, or just bitching about nothing and causing it to really sound like something. haha.
Looking back at my life - in terms of my blog's archives as well as the ones stored right in the heart (at least my memory still serves pretty well) (: To think for the past 6 months or so of idling, was a pure waste of my precious time (time obviously didnt seem that dear to me, then). Now that the fact has flipped 180degrees around, back at me, I find myself a little lost. Its hard to admit a flaw, being naturallt humane. However this fact is that undeniable. We, ourselves, choose to govern our life the way we want it to be.
My context is, juggling my priorities is unsightly. I do not wish to be a clown as if life's a circus - of the masks and mere actors. I'd prefer being the CEO of my life, who sits in a comfortable office chair, overlooking a picturesque view of the city and bay, with a pen and organiser that serves me well enough, in a nicely pressed powersuit. If life is just about juggling, then i'd think we can forgo the greater dreams we have set for ourselves(if you even have any, that is).
This is why i love reflecting so much. Because we come out of it wiser, stronger, and refreshed all over again to take on life with a tinge of relish. Its rewarding in a very personal way. If you'd beg to differ, then i'd suggest you amuse yourselves and carry on lambasting if you wish. :)
On a lighter note, no more 'i beg your pardon-s', 'huh-s', and 'what-s'. No more. I have decided to re-form my speech and command of english. I've always found people/subjects who desecrate the english language such a chore to even entertain. Only to find I'm at the verge of becoming one. You can figure out the disgust that grew almost exponentially in me. Ewww.
It would have been much uglier, and a harsher tone if not for the fact that i'm in a fairly good mood. Not speaking garbled english is just but a personal right. So, DO NOT SPEAK TO ME IN BAD ENGLISH, because i think it only reflects poorly on yourself. And speaking good english does not equal to lofty people with the stuck-up attitude. Do broaden your mental spectrum if that ever occurs to you or happen to devole victim to that as a result of inheritance. Too bad for you, i suppose.
As for my life, the most awaited-for news of all. HAHA. More commitments have been materializing as foreboded. Tennis school team trainings are killer and i've yet to do tweaking of lifestyles to that. Workloads are coming in a little intense as well. And i hope to eliminate a few tasks that are on the CEO's 'To-do' list by tonight. Till then, i'll be checking in soon if time permits.
and this is what one year has done to me, and even more...
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