Confessions of the impertinent predilections of a sinner...

its scary to think
her strength
should ever be lost

terrifying to believe
her willpower
can cease with her heartbeat

through these battles
she has remained bedridden
yet victorious

repeatedly we have prepared ourselves
talking softly through phonelines
relaying the updates

she is strong-willed beyond humankind
yet such strength is soon only to be witnessed
in my beloved mother's grim smile

we are a solid structure of support
closely connected despite distance
each taking their turn to grieve aloud

and I, the family author,
fall the farthest into silence
struggling to even type
after all that has come into play today

I have become numb
with only one selfish revelation
I do hope I meet a man as sincerely
devoted as my father.
through his eccentricities and his stubborn nature
he really would give his lifeto cushion my mother's fall.

may I, too, be one day blessed
with the comfort of such
unconditional love.